nowdays dunno why. each and every teacher came in and give us words of encouragements. i'm sick and tired of it anymore. in the past, ppl ask me where to u wanna go after ur Os. i dare to say i wanna to go NYJC. but now, i'm jus an emo kid who is aimless.

i dun feel any motivation. wad i felt was, the more ppl encouraged me, the more i feel guilty and the more i'm going to emo. i'm no longer the person whom u all know. i'm get emo very easy and keep blaming myself. talked to jaymie jiejie, laurel and junhao. all of them are very nice, giving me advice expectually jaymie jiejie!! thx alot!! will really remember wad u have told me just now. well for laurel, thx for some sort of cheering me up and encourage me to study. i might jus fall in love wif u anytime without notice. LOL!! ^^ well, junhao. thx alot too!! too bad u're not a girl if not. haha!! well, are they considered friends who care abt u when u're in a situation where u dunno how to solve things?

although we didnt get to see each other everyday. but when i talked to them, i felt like i'm talking to someone who is very closed to me like my siblings. maybe i have alrdy treated them as my family. my mind is in a whirl, i have no aims anymore. in class, i'm no longer sleeping like last time nor i'm making noise which will disturb my classmates who wans to learn from teacher. everyone will change. well, i'm not that exception. am i really a changed person or? i have no answer to this question which i wanna know.

i really wanted to find someone to talk to. but somehow, i really can't find someone who i can talk to. i can neither talk to my younger bro as he's still so young nor i can talk to erjie as i hardly can see her. i can neither talked to my parents too as our age gap is really that big that they dunno how i feel nor i can feel how they are struggling during ur teenagers period.

[ mr toda said, "in a struggle, it is crucial 2 be in absolute earnest. each day is an all-out struggle. if u r not in earnest, u will have regrets." 2day will never come again. By winning 2day, we set e stage 4 future victory. let us challenge ourselves 2 e full each precious day and have absolutely no regrets. ] this encouragement is sent by mummy. well, THX MUMMY!! i love u!! x)

i used to find eugene to talk to. but, he seems like oso encounter problems in his life or his work. so i dunno wanna to like add somemore things to let him to fan. wanna find other ppl oso dunno to find who. o well, who cares whether i'm troubled anot. hais. guess i need to settle down 1st rather den letting my mind go wild. o well, have to stop here alrdy. will post again when i have time. Sayonara~ ^^