i jus found out something. out of 10 girls, 9 of them will say themselves very ugly even though they are good looking. there is only ONE who say that she is pretty or cute. well, dun need to eleborate much more. it's obvious that who is the one. Lol.

went to SYC jus now to study. intended to study but in the end, studied abit and crap alot. and that is when zj, sam, they all came. =.- went down for fri ren concert and hysen sang till very nice!! his song is really very touching. i think the song name is "wo zhi zai hu ni" ba. XD

ivan is the emcee for fri ren today. he's quite nervous as he is moving his body around when he is doing his job. anw, GOOD JOB ivan! u can do better the next time!! (: there is a whole list of thing for me to do tml. not alot la. a few only.

tml :
teck kiang's wedding ceremony (11am)
flint 5 outing @ Sentosa (8am) <---- =.-
study at SYC (after wedding ceremony)

waaa.. wad a fruitful day tml will be. anw, gotta go sleep now. going to 1am soon. meeting them at 7.3oam tml. hais.. Goodnight! (:

WUSHU today!!
at first, i dun really wanna go down but in the end,
i told myself, "Since i'm in school alr, might as well go."
and the results that i got was really very unexpectable. (:
did so many ji ben gong and i was like watching and learning how to do it. =/

o ya. when i was doing warm-up that time,
my muscles are pain as i've not been doing stretching for almost 1 sem
when i'm "busy" with CFG during august and september.
anw, there was once everybody was fear of jiao lian
as we have to bend our body infront and stretch it
and jiao lian will be there exerting force from behind
and you will hear the "crak crak" sound.

when it was my turn,
i was freak out and cheng qian and elvis was telling me,
"it's ok de. dun need to scare de. it's very shiok one. Lol."
den i was like ok lor and let jiao lian do it. indeed, it's very shiok ah!
after doing it alr, tho was like abit pain but the feeling was woohoo!! XD
anw, i was sooo malu as when jiao lian exert force on my back,
i was gek-ing so much and he told me to relax and when i relax,
the force overcome me and my hands which was on the railing lost control
and slip down and i kneel down. =.-

well, training ended quick fast and i've the good fortune
to have my father to fetch me home.
if not i think i'm gotta be dead on bus and missed my bus stop. =.-

anw, g2g sleep now. too tired alr, tml 9am class. Goodnight ppl! Bye.. (:

suddenly i felt that i'm been cheated for a long long time. hais.. dun talk le. finally it's friday!! XD i'm getting more and more loving friday alr. i, myself, also duno why i like friday so much. maybe it's sat tml and 2 days later, it's sunday. 2 day of rest day. HAHAHA


common test week starts from 9th Dec which is 2 days after SD Kenshu. Entrance Exams is on the 14th which is exactly on the same week as my common test. =.- i duno how to pass both exams but i must chant hard to absorb everything which i've studied. (:

i really cant afford to lose this battle. i cant make my parents to be worried abt me anymore. they should put all their energy on my brother and nuture him and not me. i really duno wad to do, i'm clueless as i dun even want to study. i said my AEL lecturer duno how to teach and i simply heck care and dun wan to listen in his lecture. i'm not like that in last semester even when i said my ELTECH lecturer duno how to teach. hais.. i must do something abt it. CHANT HARD JERRY!


i g2g alr. Bye. going down to SYC later. i want to study!!

i received a very bad news today in school. i'm gotta be debarred if i'm later for COMT class again. and debarred means that i'll have to repeat this module again next sem. =.- and it will be totally waste of my time when i'm doing so. i must get out of house everyday super early liao for me in order not to get debarred for any module.

was discussing with my friends abt Madagascar jus now. i simply love the penguin! (: they are so cute!! i rmb watching the advertistment that time and it shows the penguin part. it was dumb but at the same time, funny. so which means, it's both funny plus dumb. XD

i think Gohonzon is really challenging my faith. so many obstacles for my family and i to overcome BUT. . . i welcome all of them. (: no matter what happens, i'll chant hard and overcome every obstacles which is infront of me. that's the spirit yeah! (:

got to go for chye long's mother wake alr. Bye

have been going toilet for the whole day jus because of drinking the whole packet of HL milk. =.- i will never drink one whole packet of HL milk again. i thought it's nothing as i've been drinking one whole packet of Nutrisoy oso nothing happen, but who knows? =.-

well, what is the sadest thing for one's bdae? it's either one's boyfriend or girlfriend had no time to celebrate with you and etc. but for my case, i dun have a girlfriend so i dun fall into the category of the "girlfriend had no time to celebrate with me" but i fall into the getting whack by my birthday cake. =.- but it's was a memorable birthday for me. (:

anw, thanks alot ppl for celebrating with me and thanks for the gift! (: i'll definately read the books which all of your books and i'll make full use of the shirt. Lol!! XD

well, the dinner was quite good. free flow of everything, ice-cream and drinks only. =.- but whether it worth it anot, it's depends on how much benben and yon chin eats. Lol. XD

anw, before i forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA!!(: she's my kindergarden classmate. (: going to play game now. gotta sleep in an hour time. Goodnight!

well, i'm finally 18 today!! wooohooo! finally, after enduring for one year. i'm finally 18th years old. i'm seriously waiting for soooo many ppl's wishing but NVM!! chant for me 10hrs will be better den any wishing. LOL!! =p

received a card from marcus from chen laoshi today. he's cute man!! i'll be looking forward for the next SK 20th Anniversary to see how much has he grow. XD i oso must start to grow liao. 18th years old and not 8 years old. cannot be like a kid anymore.

anw, i duno what happened to me man, chant half-way and think of last year, and looking at what happened this year, suddenly become super emo. =.- but i resolved and i must really engrave this guidance in my heart, "Through your faith, you have grown into a man who is praiseworthy in anyone's eyes, a woman perfectly suited you will appear." - Josei Toda

no time for it other things! fulfilling my mentor's dream is what i concern now.

YES! Jerry can DO it! Jerry must always put his mentor and Gohonzon in 1st place! There is nothing that Jerry can't do! (:

OMG!! i'm short-listed for interview and briefing for the wuhan trip!! but i think is nobody want to go sign up that why i'm been short-listed. LOL!! anw, if i successfully get to go wuhan, i'll have chant alot for the money to come. everything must go on smoothly but 6weeks at china, the thing which i miss most will be my computer. =X Lol.

went back to SK today. the kids are having a party today and they will be officially having holiday after tml. saw many kids which i played with them that time and i'm sooooo happy that they remembered MY NAME!! tho it's was like they are trying to be funny by saying i'm jerry the mouse.

saw daichi, kenjin! talked to them and they reacted on how they react on the first day which i met them. anw, bought some gifts for them and managed to give them. but i'm like sooo -.- , give 5 only and somemore when it's infront of so many kids. obviously they will like want to have one. =.- kena scolded by qisheng for having no brains to give out gifts tacticly. ZzZ

anw, after the kids left, had a talk with chen laoshi, who is also my WD chapter chief, and i've made this resolution. 10years later, i must meet chloe and shakubuku her. not trying to say that i like her and will be waiting for her 10yrs =.- but rather to say, it's my job to fulfill my mentor's dream. this resolution has got to do with the talk with chen laoshi jus now. Lol.

anw, i'm going to bath and watch tv. not gotta play computer. common test on the 9th week. gotta perpare alr.. =.-

i'll be looking forward to the day which i'll be see you every week
but somehow, i duno why whenever the time comes,
my inner self will be struggling very hard.
perhaps i'm afraid,
to see you angry again after i said something.
everything that i've said,
it's jus in a form of seeing how you react.
it's kinda childish i know,
but i duno why i still do it,
and it's when everytime when i tell myself not to,
maybe, it's my fundamental darkness making me to do that.
i'm not giving any excuses,
but in any case, it's my own fault.
whenever seeing you laugh, smile
i couldn't find it anywhere except in you, alone,
and naturally, i will smile(: too.
it's just like the sun, illuminating the darkness,
where it brings hope and happiness to everybody.

anw, this is jus random thoughts of mine. i'm neither saying anybody nor emo. =.-

What Your Cute Monster Says About You

You are both a realist and an idealist. You're able to see the world as it is - and how it could be. You dream big, and you never give up on your beliefs. You have big plans. Your inner demon is depression. Sometimes you build things up in your head. People think you're cute because you're determined. You're a fighter, and that's charming.

Lol. this describe me fully. XD
this is the link for the test, http://blogthings.com/thecutemonstertest/

waaa.. finally find some time to blog. it's either i fall asleep when i was lying on bed or i was busy playing WC3. =X anw, my time spending on com will be lesser and less as something had happened within my family and i need to chant alot for it.

anw, back to what i am suppose to blog today, i dun think i'm gotta update what's going on during the FDIC kenshu. i'm jus been lazy. Lol. (: if there is anything that anyone wants to know abt the FDIC kenshu, u can come and ask me. well, i'm going back to SK on tueday to see the kids. i jus wondering what to buy for them since zijing said no sweet is allow. . . think i'm gotta buy afew pencils for that few kids.

study meeting tml. gotta talk abt the spirit of Nichiren Daishonin if i'm not wrong and so, i can learn quite alot from tml's study meeting tml. tho i'm the only youth there, but i'll do my best to expand my district and make it a place where there is both youth and adult division. (: the road will be difficult but i know that it'll become true somehow in 2years time. ^^

talking abt kosen-rufu, i recalled what i told zijing jus now. it's was such a wonderful dialogue and i think, i've the habit of making ppl to misinterpret me. ZzZ think it's really a bad habit of me and i think i shld chant more for it.

well, it's 2.57am now. i think i need to go alr. Goodnight!(: